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[May. 1st, 2009|11:49 pm] |
dear jamie ann,
do not seek revenge on others, it will make your heart hateful. it's okay to feel hurt. it's okay to feel sad, and even mad.. just know when to let it go. it's okay to not believe what people say, as long as you believe what you have to say. keep it real. don't lie to your friends; if you lie you don't deserve to have friends.
know that no matter how hard the fall, you can get up with your head held high. that doesn't mean you won't feel the bruise, just means your capable of brushing it off.
keep your father's cynical ways about you, it will keep you realistic.
mom taught you to love your enemies because they need it the most; that will always be the truth. mom taught you a lot of things and because they came from her they will always be the truth.
you may not be a christian now, but take something away from those years still in church. karma is a bitch, so don't wrong others.
in conclusion..
its not a question, but a lesson learned in time... for what its worth, it was worth all the while. |
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[Apr. 29th, 2009|11:51 am] |
Detoxing.
Bye, bye "bad" things. |
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[Apr. 25th, 2009|12:21 am] |
Ahaha Meghan across the hall is drunk which makes for some good laughs. Espically when its with whiskey and cream soda. I swear Tech girls get more drunk then the boys do. She keeps yelling about how Christine isn't here.
Today has been good. I went to pre-cal and then hung out with Lanesa the majority of the day. We ate lunch. We went to the gym until she hit me in the face with a racquetball, ahah. Went shopping. Generally just chilled. I'm pretty excited for the rest of the weekend staying up at school. I washed all of my bedding for the last time tonight, and have scrubbed out the majority of my room. I'm going home Thursday morning for my cousins wedding on Saturday and probably won't have any other time to do it before exams.
Monday Bryan came up and helped me pack up pictures from my wall, the boxes under my bed, the risers, and some of the stuff from my closet. It was really nice to get in some quality time just hanging out with him. Thinking of it, we did that three days last weekend and it was seriously nice. I really miss him. On the way home we had somewhat of a heart to heart about our friends and our families. It's really nice to know at this point in my life I feel like I'm surrounded by genuinely amazing friends.
Tech has been a good experience though I'm unsure of my college future..
Tommorow however will be delightful. I'm going to wake up early and spend my morning tanning and swimming; two of my favorite things. I've also got to do some more studying and cleaning but it always seems better when mixed with things I actually want to do.
Well, I'm going to curl up into bed.. or actually go check on Meghan ahah.
Goodnight. |
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[Apr. 16th, 2009|11:49 pm] |
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First of all to understand what happened to killer, you gotta understand who killer the dog was. Now killer was born to a three-legged bitch of a mother. He was always ashamed of this, man. And then right after that he's adopted by this man, Tito Liebowitz he's a small time gun runner and a rotweiler fight promoter. So he puts killer into training. They see killer's good. He is damn good. But then he had the fight of his life. They pit him against his brother nibbles. And killer said "no man that's my brother, I can't fight nibbles" but they made him fight anyway, and killer, he killed nibbles. Killer said "that's it!" he called off all his fights, and he started doing crack, and he freaked out. Then in a rage, he collapsed, and his heart no longer beat. wow. |
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[Apr. 13th, 2009|10:29 pm] |
So, I'm flossing my teeth! Whee.
And I'm watching Castle. Whee.
Well, I have a music appreciation exam tommorow. Which isn't very exciting. I'm honestly kind of stoked about it because it means a longer nap time. I love naps. But, for now it means I'm listening to Haydn and Smetana.
It seems like everyone is either changing, or qualities that I didn't realize about them are shining thru at the moment.
Jared hitting on me? Thats just creepy. Because I've never invisioned him as that kind of guy. A creeper that is! Sigh.
My brother. I know he is going thru a hard time with his break up. But he's an alcohlic doushebag. That's harsh. But alas, it's true. I just want my brother, my best friend back. I know he thinks I'm being self rightous but I'm not, I'm just trying to be a good sister. But, if he doesn't want to listen, I'm not going to waste my words.
I guess when realizing things about other people you begin to see things about yourself that you may not like. So, I think I'm going to wean myself off of over the counter medicines that make me sleepy, and stop even the occasional smoking; try to become a bit healthier.
My gums are bleeding.
Success, ahah. |
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[Mar. 29th, 2009|07:37 pm] |
wheeeeeeeeeee.
so. herm.
sinuses suck. |
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[Jan. 27th, 2009|11:02 pm] |
So, I definitly shouldn't be posting, I should be studying.. I have a Pre- Cal quiz tommorow and I missed Monday's class. But I've got a million things on my mind, so I've got to type it out.
Bryan and Kat broke up. And I've got mixed emotions about it. Our relationship is just so dysfunctional and I'm pretty sure that its going to go back to what it was before. And what the hell was that even? Uh, going out. Cuddling. Getting into jealous arguements by making underhanded comments about the other people we're seeing. Like we might as well be together or not be together. I guess only time will tell.
Speaking of relationships.. Josh and Brandi's seems like its failing and it breaks my heart. I love my brother to death, and to see him so depressed kills me. We were hanging out watching Juno and he suddenly breaks down crying. To see someone who you consider your rock, and your bestfriend, be so unsure and hurt, it kills me. I love Brandi like she's my sister, because shes always been more of a sister to me than Angela has been, and she does so much for Josh. Again, thats something that only time will tell.
It seems like I had such high hopes for 2009 but so far I've been fairly let down. Granted it's only been one month. But, dad has had health problems finding out he had diabetes and kidney stones. His relationship problems with Julie. Everyone's failing relationships.
I'm really confused about college. I do like Tech, and I know that i can try harder. I also know that going to UTC would be so much easier. I feel like I would have the ability to do better because I would be more relaxed and I wouldn't have so many loans, plus being able to work. All the same, I hate ever feeling like I'm a quitter, and by not staying here the entire time I'd consider that quitting. Blah.
On a happier note, I turn 19 next Friday! And I'm not completely sure whats going on for that. Maybe a party? Maybe dinner? Maybe nothing. All I want is a relaxing weekend and some coconut rum jello shooters. Not even getting drunk; I just like rum, duh.
Alas, I really should study.
Until later days. |
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[Jan. 13th, 2009|11:26 pm] |
Blah.
I've definitly gotten away from blogging, but I'm hoping that I'll atleast jot something down on here once a month.
I'm nearing the end of my long winter break. I've got mixed emotions about going back to school. On one hand I'm excited to get back and see Lanesa and my room mate. I'm definitly excited to start new classes and try to raise my GPA. Something random is that I'm even eager to see the little kids at the daycare; as much as they push my buttons it'll be nice to be around them again.
On the flip side I'm definitly going to miss getting to sleep in and cuddle with my dog. :[ I'll miss getting to see my friends and family whenever I please. And I'll definitly miss not having to drive all the stinking time! Though I probably won't miss Little Tokyo (Harrison quit; and I see Dylan anyway) it'll be sad not to have that cash flow.
I got my wisdom teeth taken out last week, and I finally got to feeling better yesterday. Though I go back to get them checked tommorow.
Haha, Philip messaged me on facebook and I let out a scream.
So when I woke up today Yo Gabba Gabba was on; and at first I was like "what the fuck? who lets their child watch this?" but it cracked me up. It reminded me of a simplier, funkier version of a Seasme Street clip. Who knows?
My excess school money goes in my account in the morning, I'm pretty stoked about that! Even though its just going toward books and my phone bill. Boo.
In the past month three people I know have gotten engaged! My cousins Vinnie and Elizabeth and one my bestfriends Amy. And Amy asked me to be a bridesmaid! So, that's pretty exciting.
Alas, I must shower and find my dog.
Goodnight. |
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[Jan. 10th, 2009|01:16 am] |
so.
wisdom teeth got taken out wednesday, and i'm still in pain.
doesn't help that i grind my teeth at night.
i'm excited about 2009.
really.
truly.
i don't want to go back to school;
but even thats exciting to have a new start in my classes.
if i still lived at home..
http://www.rescuepug.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=385&Itemid=38
i would rescue turbo, that dog looks like a sweetheart!
i'm going to be a bridesmaid in amys wedding.
josh, dad, and i are going to the scottish highland games in north carolina this summer.
blah, i'll try to be better about updates this year.
but so long for now :] |
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