stolen from dani and quick update,

FIRSTS
1. First best friend: meredith hannah.
2. First car:
3. First kiss: bryan.
4. First break-up: nick.
5. First screen name: jcsbabygurl.
6. First self-purchased album: spicegirls, "spiceworld"
7. First funeral: grandpa crum.
8. First pets: buffy, kickass dog; he ran away :(
9. First piercing: i got my ears peirced when i was 7, but they grew over, and i will not re-pierce them.
10. First credit card:
12. First enemy: emily; kindergarten.
13. First big trip: new jersey, two months ago.


LASTS
1. Last cigarette: ooohhhh. i've never smoked a whole cigarette but smoking..probably a month ago.
2. Last car ride: comming back from wal-mart with josh & brandi.
3. Last kiss: a few hours ago.
4. Last good cry: a month ago.
5. Last library book checked out: i havn't checked out books at the library in forever.
6. Last movie seen in theatres: kingdom of heaven.
7. Last beverage drank: water currently.
8. Last food consumed: french fries.
9. Last crush: unsure.
10. Last phone call: kelly.
11. Last time showered: 2 hours ago.
12. Last shoes worn: pink, roxy flipflops.
13. Last item bought: harry potter and the half-blood prince.
14. Last annoyance: my brother.
15. Last time wanting to die: last breakup.
16. Last time scolded: this morning before mom left for vaycay.

RELATIONSHIPS
1. Who are your best friends? kelly marie. bryan. salvato.
2. Do you have a boyfriend and/or Girlfriend: yes.

Fashion:
1. Where is your favorite place to shop? for clothes- hot topic, target, gap, and old navy. anything else, target.
2. Any tattoos or piercings? nope- but if i had a choice; i'd have a black heart on my left hip & my lip perced.

SPECIFICS
1. Do you do drugs? no.
2. What kind of shampoo do you use? herbal essences.
3. What are you most scared of? dying, being alone, not living a full life.
4. What are you listening to right now? default.or now, system of a down- toxcity on repeat.
5. Where do you want to get married? scotland.
6. How many buddies are online? 6 on aol, & 22 on aim
7. What would you change about yourself? insecurities.

FAVOURITES
1. Color(s): pink, green, black.
2. Food: taco salad. smoothies.
3. Girls names: ashlynn, persaeus, jade, madelynn.
4. Boys Names: darth, jude.
5. Subjects in school: choir. english.
6. Animals: hippos. elephants. giraffes.
7. Sports: soccer & baseball.

HAVE YOU EVER?
1. Given anyone a bath? yes.
2. Smoked?: yes.
3. Bungee jumped? no, but i'd like to.
5. Skinny-dipped? yes.
6. Been in love? yes.
7. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? nope. i havn't made myself, it just sometimes happens.
8. Pictured your crush naked? i don't have a crush; but usually when i do, sometimes i'll think about it..and gag.
9. Seen your crush naked? i don't have a crush.
10. Cried when someone died? always.
11. Lied? yes.
12. Fallen for your best friend? no.
13. Been rejected? it was awhile ago.
14. Rejected someone? yes.
15. Used someone? nope.
16. Done something you regret? i have things i wish i wouldn't have done; but i learned from them; so i don't exactly regret them.

CURRENT
1. Clothes? white tanktop, black volcom tee, toothbrush bracelet, and white boyshorts.
2. Music? hannah's xanga's 'behind blue eyes'
3. Make-up? eyeliner, mascara, and foundation.
4. Annoyance? my lack of sleep.
5. Smell? candle.
7. Desktop picture? just blue.
8. Book you're reading? harry potter's newest.
9. CD in player? system of a down.
10. DVD in player? probably finding neverland.
11. Color of toenails? right now nothing, but usually hot pink or red.

LAST PERSON
1. You touched? josh. smacked him. haha.
2. Hugged? rick.
3. You instant messaged? salvato.
4. You kissed? rick.

WHOM DO YOU WANT TO...
1. Kill? nobody.
2. Slap? thats more like it; quite a few people; right now..jonah, josh, & my conscience.
3. Get high with? i don't have the urge to get high.
4. Look like? angelia jolie; she's gorgeous. but i'm not complaining.
5. Talk to offline? my mom.
6. Talk to online? jojo.
7. Hang out with? currently, i've been missing kimmy. so her. or ricky dee. or brandon?

RANDOM
1. In the morning I am: grouchy as all get out.
2. All I need is: love, cereal, sleep.
3. Love is: unexplainable if you actually get to experience it.
4. I dream about: those closest to me.

WHICH IS BETTER?
1. Coke or Pepsi: i perfer juice or water.
2. Flowers or candy: flowers.
3. Tall or short: tall.
4. Liquor or beer? liquor; beer is fking nasty.

RANDOM
1. What do you notice first: eyes, & hair.
2. Last person you danced with: i dance alone :)
3. Worst question to ask: "is that a hickey on your neck?" i get that a lot. it's a birthmark.
4. Who makes you laugh the most? kelly, when we're both in the right mood.
5. Who makes you smile: it''s pretty easy to make me smile; but imperticular my brother & nephew.
6. Who gives you a funny feeling: currently..just one person.
7. Who do you have a crush on: i think i've been asked that..upwords of 5 times on this freakin survey at this point. i don't have a crush.
8. Who has a crush on you: ah, who knows..i can think of maybe 2 people. but thats vain.

DO YOU EVER...?
1. Sit on the internet all night waiting for a msg: not lately.
2. Save conversations: yahoo automatically saves them but on other accounts, i save the good ones.
3. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: ah, i can't say i have.
4. Wish you were younger: um..not usually.
5. Cry because someone said something to you: ah i have before. i won't lie. depends on the person. they have to mean mucho to me.

NUMBER
1. Of times I have had my heart broken: three or four.
2. Of hearts I have broken: five.
3. Of guys I've kissed: five.
4. Of girls I've kissed: two.
5. Of continents I have lived in: one.
6. Of tight friends: four.
7. Of CDs I own: not a huge amount. probably around 60.
8. Of Scars: in my lifetime i'e made three, two on my left knee and one on the right of my right chest. and i also have two birthmarks.

UPDATE:
aye. i've gotten 4 hours of sleep in 48 hours. i am stressed out. yes, mom left the other morning. i went and got the harry potter book. seems like she left forever ago when it was just the other morning. rick got in at four. unfortunatly met my brother, who was cool at first then a jerkoff. anyway. we cuddled :) and oh good goodness, i have freaking missed cuddling. it was awesome. went to the movie in the park. the little rascels. didnt stay for the whole thing because it started raining. still good stuff. went to wendys. showed him hotels. i think we're both uber stressed about it. i don't know who moreso. um. yeah. argh. i'm happy though. very happy he's here. today we're going to see willy wonka. good stuff. right now i must go to my dads for breakfast. much love