bleh. cranky, cranky, cranky. my nerves are so shot. so today starts my spring break. yesterday. i had a test in the morning. spanish, did nothing, which is becoming a pretty regular thing. then, in wellness. i had changed out and we were playing dodgeball and when i didn't even see it comming some kid, kyle, in the boys weight training class pegged the holy hell out of my face. it was pretty nasty. my eye was swollen and i was crying. but overall i was fine after awhile. but, i called my mom anyway; because at that point i really couldn't put up with people. so, i went to lunch and..me and some girl got into it. >< people suck so hardcore. maima came and got me though. came home. laid in bed and pouted. daddy picked me up. went to tai chi class with him. which was beyond relaxing. its a japanese stretching exercise. its foucus is a lot on breathing. nobody talks. nobody says your doing something wrong. you can go at your own pace. you become at one with 'your energy ball'. its nice. your mind goes to somewhere else for 45 minutes. its a bunch of old, herbal men. i needed that. so, stopped at the mall with dad. went and saw mom & joanne getting their toes done for a minute. went & ate chinese. yummy. came home & passed out. rick called at 3. talked to him. let me just say. i am very proud of him. but bleh. its been so hard. i know on him. but on me too. i honestly didn't think he'd be working..8-9-12 hours a day. and not a get day off..ever. & i know its not his fault. i miss him insanely much. i know its just talking to someone. and it sounds retarded. but i never figured i could find that much happiness in one person. but its just so frusterating. everything is frusterating. i just want to get away from here sometimes. just for a day. or a quick hour. working out. sleeping. they do that. but i'd like to pshyically be away from these people. and school. and home. sigh. being a emo kid hm? don't pity me though. me, kelly, and claire are going out tommorw so tha might be fun.
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